A BIG Thank You!!

February has been a hellish month for me.. And I'm currently depressed.. My mood is so unstable.. And when I say depressed, yes, I do mean depression, where I may have to see a psychiatrist if it gets too serious..


Problems after problems, trouble after troubles.. It kept coming.. It just swept me off.. With my faith nearly non-existence, I succumbed to depression.. I was being negative, I can't see the bright side of anything.. I only know hatred, despair, sorrow.. My smile became fake.. I no longer know what happiness is..


But then, there are people who put up with me.. And right now, I would like to say, thank you.. Without you guys supporting me, I would've been here typing this right now..


Sabrina Kuah (My Piggy Sis) - thanks for being with me all the way.. despite we had a big row a week or two ago..


Venus - I know it's been hard on you to see me like this.. But thanks for being supportive and smiling, which brightens up my mood..


Ai Lyn - For being crazy during phone calls just to cheer me up..


Andy - For being my L4D kaki to help me release steam


Chien - For being my L4D kaki and that day, listening out to my probs a bit..


Hime - For listening to my probs and going crazy with me at times about lala killing and stuff..


Joanna Jie - For you, a big thank you.. For constantly supporting me, despite you having your own problems, for having to put up with me during my childish times, and for all the time loving me as your little brother, despite of so many things I've done wrong..

Trigger Happy

Recently, have been kinda addicted to Left 4 Dead.. A zombie killing game.. A game where you can seriously shoot dead a huge mob of zombies.. Best stress reliever.. Have formed quite a good partnership between Chien and Andy.. We played together constantly.. We know what to do in each situation and well, we gel together perfectly.. Since its always a 4 person team.. We either play with AI or we add another friend in..

Me and Andy managed to convince our girlfriends to play.. And what do you know.. I got mine slightly addicted.. Just came back not too long from a zombie massacre session.. The only thing I hate about the game is when my teammates are trigger happy.. I'm no exception to friendly fires.. But at times, it becomes annoying when 30% of your own HP is actually not drained by zombies but by your own teammates..

My game just now was with entirely a newbie team.. Shoots at anything they see.. Including teammates.. When a Hunter pinned me.. All of them shot the Hunter off me.. And guess what? Those trigger happy guys kept shooting.. Well.. There goes 10 HP..

My worst case was with a guy... Seriously trigger happy.. He decided that shooting humans were more fun than zombies.. Shotgun.. Splash damage.. He annoyingly denied shooting us.. Oh well, we learn by experience.. My previous tema shooter games, Nick was the guy who has the highest rate of friendly fire.. Hahahaha!

Remember to all newbies in shooter games.. SHOOT THE ENEMY!! NOT UR FRIENDS!!

18 Feb 2009 Nick's Worst Day of His Life

U know.. I never ever believed in luck.. Well, this day, was my unluckiest day..

First off, my mood isn't too good at the start of the day due to my Accounting paper.. I did not do well.. Lack of preparations.. No complaints..

Then, went to release some steam and played Left 4 Dead.. Its a shoot-the zombies game.. Idiot friend who I alias him now as NOOB! preferred to shoot teammates then zombies, his friendly fire caused us take extra damages and die.. Not only that, his trigger-happy habits got us into serious trouble and thank God to proper teamwork between me, Andy and Chien (Cc Kaki), still manage to win the game.. But with our statistics lower than usual.. My mood basically did not improve.. So did my Cc Kakis'..

Ok.. This by far is the worse.. Went shopping in Econsave with a friend.. When we came out, glass broken, bags gone.. My bag is a brand new Nike Bag, which I bought with my girlfriend as a 'couple bag' and in the bag, my Accounting textbook, my Quiksilver pencil case, calculator, pens and mechanical pencils, notes bought from the uni, and precious written notes.. Estimated loss, RM 300.. T.T Oh ya, bag wass less than week old.. 6 days old to be precise..

Then night time.. Pasar malam.. Went out with my girlfriend.. Bought 'Hai Di Ye' (undersea coconut??) to cool myself.. Having bad sore throat.. Spilled it.. For no reason..

Luck?? Not too sure.. But, seriously worse day ever.. T.T

Oh ya.. Today wasn't a good day either.. Emo-ing.. Influenced by my girlfriend.. Then went to blown some steam playing Left 4 Dead.. Was a couple game.. Me, Venus (my gf), Andy and Grace.. We kicked butt.. Then they left.. Leaving me and Chien and NOOB! More mess-ups by him and when we played DoTA.. He like really tried to be stupid.. Chien wanted to rerlease steam because he flunk his FoM.. And there we go again.. NOOB! really love to get on people's nerve..

And also want to sincerely apologise to Chien whose car got broke in because of me.. Left my bag at the front seat.. So sorry..

Till I See You - Hillsong

The song that gave me hope..

The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

You are a voice that called the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name